Every year on the 31st of December, I reread all my journal entries for the year to give myself an overall impression as to whether the past 365 days were mostly good ones or bad ones. It also helps me determine whether I’ve learned anything valuable so that I can feel a little bit more wiser; or ask myself WTF I was thinking and then promise myself I shan’t repeat the same actions for the upcoming year.
As I was explaining to my Sunshine earlier today, most of my entries involved her and how happy I feel about the state of our relationship. I’ve always been very relationship-focused and not afraid to work hard to make things work. However, I have to say that it’s nice that I don’t have to work so hard at this one.
Thanks for that my Sunshine.
If there was anything negative that came out of 2010, it had to do with work. I pride myself on doing my job well but I need to consider that for other people, that’s just not a priority. I need to ensure that I don’t take their bad work ethics personally; their bad performance IS NOT a reflection on me.
So instead of having resolutions this year, I’d like to set myself some goals. Last year, I wrote a book for my godchildren. I gave it to them 2 weeks ago and I have to say that all the hours spent on writing, finding an acceptable format, searching for the right illustrations…all of the hard work was worth every second. It was priceless to see their happy little faces enjoy my gift to them and remind them that even though I’m far away, it doesn’t mean I’m not thinking about them or love them any less.
All this to say is that the book distracted me from a project that I would really really like to get done this year: write and produce a short lesbian film based on my disastrous dating adventures.
Another goal I’ve set for myself is that I want to buy a house. If my promotion goes through in the next two months, then I will definitely start shopping around. The idea of putting myself in debt scares the bejesus out of me, but I think owning realty is a great long term investment.
My third goal is try out new recipes. I love to cook. I should be more adventurous and try new cuisines. I say this every year, but something tells me I’m going to stick with it for 2011.
Last but not least, I want to continue being active. I recognize that when I’m not doing any kind of exercise, I feel sluggish and sad.
Whether you decide to set goals, objectives, resolutions, or nothing at all; I wish for you only the best in 2011. May you have continued good health, moments of happiness, gratitude, and enlightenment, more money, and the ability to forgive not only the ones who have hurt you the most, but especially yourself.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
